[It really was, because she had ceased to be human thousands of years ago. Hundreds of years of this existence, and she was identified by it. Being anything else was strange to her.]
I am unhappy and unfulfilled, bitter of others and therefore I exist. If I were happy, would I still remain? Would I be happy even as I cease to be? You found me in the void all that time ago.
It was ... nice. To feel like I was alone in the universe. But at the same time it's terrifying to not be me. I think, perhaps, it's best to say that I accept what I am?
But, if you asked me, looking ack on the last thousand years, I would have insisted on vengeance, knowing the price I'd pay? I would have let them be happy and just faded away, bitter and mortal. But I can't go back in time, so I have found ways to be 'ok' with it.
I'm just ok. And here? I'm a little better than ok.
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[It really was, because she had ceased to be human thousands of years ago. Hundreds of years of this existence, and she was identified by it. Being anything else was strange to her.]
I am unhappy and unfulfilled, bitter of others and therefore I exist. If I were happy, would I still remain? Would I be happy even as I cease to be? You found me in the void all that time ago.
It was ... nice. To feel like I was alone in the universe. But at the same time it's terrifying to not be me. I think, perhaps, it's best to say that I accept what I am?
But, if you asked me, looking ack on the last thousand years, I would have insisted on vengeance, knowing the price I'd pay? I would have let them be happy and just faded away, bitter and mortal. But I can't go back in time, so I have found ways to be 'ok' with it.
I'm just ok. And here? I'm a little better than ok.