[Blue frowns to himself, staring up at some point near the ceiling of the bathhouse as he muses on it- on his childhood frustrations, the nature of competition, the reality of being unable to defeat that One Person. By now, even by then, he had been... over it, already, but that didn't mean that he had forgotten what it had felt like.]
[Raihan is tall enough that he's still in Blue's peripheral vision even glancing upward, and he sort of watches him sit still looking away as he ponders it. Old bitterness rose back up easily. He was okay, losing to Red, now. but he couldn't say everything had been resolved, on their part.]
Guys who have all that stuff come easily to them will never notice on their own....
[It feels like another conversation he had, recently. Certainly, it seemed this sort of feeling wasn't uncommon. That, at least, sort of made Blue feel... better. Vindicated, childishly, that it wasn't just him, that this sort of unfairness really did exist in a broad sense.]
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[Raihan is tall enough that he's still in Blue's peripheral vision even glancing upward, and he sort of watches him sit still looking away as he ponders it. Old bitterness rose back up easily. He was okay, losing to Red, now. but he couldn't say everything had been resolved, on their part.]
Guys who have all that stuff come easily to them will never notice on their own....
[It feels like another conversation he had, recently. Certainly, it seemed this sort of feeling wasn't uncommon. That, at least, sort of made Blue feel... better. Vindicated, childishly, that it wasn't just him, that this sort of unfairness really did exist in a broad sense.]
That doesn't bother you?