(He knows enough about Akechi to know they're not unbased on some sort of reality, perceived or otherwise. It pains him, but he still can hear the reminiscent memories - yells and shrieks of a deranged mind, screaming how he has carefully molded everything in his life so that someone would want him around. Akechi doesn't even need to finish his sentence when Ren already knows exactly what his trauma is bubbling underneath the surface.
Ren, on the other hand, doesn't want Akechi to ever do that around him, for him. He likes--, no. That's not it, is it?)
Goro. (And he takes the unclenched hands into his again, both as a small romantic gesture and as a way to keep Akechi from doing it again, because really, Ren knows Akechi will immediately tense up as soon as he continues and he doesn't want the other to almost break his own fingers putting pressure on his palm.) I love you.
(And if Akechi bears to look, Ren looks exactly as he'd expect. Sure of his words, not a single question in his mind to steer him into uncertainty. No, just Ren's gray eyes, honest and open. Akechi might as well want to throw him out of the window for it.)
I know that fact doesn't change all the shit you've been through. (Curse word, because really, there's no other.) And I don't expect you to believe me on my word alone and I don't expect you to deal with it overnight.
I just want to be a real part of this. If you still want me, I'm not going anywhere.
(He just wants to be with Akechi while he fights off what holds him back and be an active participant of their relationship, but he needs Akechi to allow it.)
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(He knows enough about Akechi to know they're not unbased on some sort of reality, perceived or otherwise. It pains him, but he still can hear the reminiscent memories - yells and shrieks of a deranged mind, screaming how he has carefully molded everything in his life so that someone would want him around. Akechi doesn't even need to finish his sentence when Ren already knows exactly what his trauma is bubbling underneath the surface.
Ren, on the other hand, doesn't want Akechi to ever do that around him, for him. He likes--, no. That's not it, is it?)
Goro. (And he takes the unclenched hands into his again, both as a small romantic gesture and as a way to keep Akechi from doing it again, because really, Ren knows Akechi will immediately tense up as soon as he continues and he doesn't want the other to almost break his own fingers putting pressure on his palm.) I love you.
(And if Akechi bears to look, Ren looks exactly as he'd expect. Sure of his words, not a single question in his mind to steer him into uncertainty. No, just Ren's gray eyes, honest and open. Akechi might as well want to throw him out of the window for it.)
I know that fact doesn't change all the shit you've been through. (Curse word, because really, there's no other.) And I don't expect you to believe me on my word alone and I don't expect you to deal with it overnight.
I just want to be a real part of this. If you still want me, I'm not going anywhere.
(He just wants to be with Akechi while he fights off what holds him back and be an active participant of their relationship, but he needs Akechi to allow it.)