S...o this will sound weird. If I want her, that way? Which I'm not saying that I do. But if I do? I want to replace him. To be her world, her personal project. but I don't want to steal her away from him.
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If they weren't just courting, if they were married, I'd have forced myself to drop it. I'd be jealous, but I'd just deal. I... I can't do that to someone else. I just can't.
[It wasn't obvious, but the 'I can't be the 'other woman' in a dying marriage was a real sign that she was shifting. On the one hand? It was probably something she'd have felt no matter what. She couldn't be the person who broke a marriage up, not that way. In the old days, she'd demanded what she assumed to be unfaithful relationships to shatter out of jealousy when they crossed her bridge. But she wasn't ever the other woman. She bred jealousy. She threatened wrath. She didn't make people cheat. This ... could only happen because Cloud wans't her husband, because he wasn't actually here.
But the fact that she SAID it, meant that she was admitting that fidelity mattered to her, as did her jealousies. She cared about how much she got envious, but she also cared about a house being stable. Polyamorous if they could pull it off. Two girls, two guys, it didn't matter. If they'd committed, she didn't want it breaking off, especially not because someone was a shit and cheating. And that was becoming important, which hinted that her nature wasn't changing, but what she was focusing on in that nature was.]
She probably needs to figure out if she's bi too.
[Oh, and she just flat out said that.]
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Apparently I might be. Which should have been obvious because of Yuugi, but whatever.
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If they weren't just courting, if they were married, I'd have forced myself to drop it. I'd be jealous, but I'd just deal. I... I can't do that to someone else. I just can't.
[It wasn't obvious, but the 'I can't be the 'other woman' in a dying marriage was a real sign that she was shifting. On the one hand? It was probably something she'd have felt no matter what. She couldn't be the person who broke a marriage up, not that way. In the old days, she'd demanded what she assumed to be unfaithful relationships to shatter out of jealousy when they crossed her bridge. But she wasn't ever the other woman. She bred jealousy. She threatened wrath. She didn't make people cheat. This ... could only happen because Cloud wans't her husband, because he wasn't actually here.
But the fact that she SAID it, meant that she was admitting that fidelity mattered to her, as did her jealousies. She cared about how much she got envious, but she also cared about a house being stable. Polyamorous if they could pull it off. Two girls, two guys, it didn't matter. If they'd committed, she didn't want it breaking off, especially not because someone was a shit and cheating. And that was becoming important, which hinted that her nature wasn't changing, but what she was focusing on in that nature was.]
She probably needs to figure out if she's bi too.
[Oh, and she just flat out said that.]
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Apparently I might be. Which should have been obvious because of Yuugi, but whatever.