[ As much as she hates this, this crying and looking ridiculous in front of him, just as much as she hates doing it in front of anyone else. It's embarrassing and dumb and she should be better at holding herself together after so many years of holding things in. At home, Ren's departure had been inevitable. After the school year, he'd return to his hometown and life would go back to the way it was, albeit far, far more enlightened and changed than before his arrival. That thought had been a sad one, of course, but that was a different kind of sadness compared to what she feels right now. This feels more like grieving someone who has died, because this isn't home and she has no idea where he's gone, or when or if she'll ever see him again. At home, she knew he was just a bus ride away... here? For all she knows, he's really dead.
She hasn't felt this upset or lost since the day she'd said goodbye to Shiho for the last time, in person at least. That sense of loss has hit her like a train, amplified by about ten million, and unfortunately, poor Seto is here having to endure everything that's coming from that. She's looked everywhere, and now she's going to have to take it upon herself to call a little meeting with the girls to talk some things about about Ren's and Akechi's departure and she's not looking forward to that either. But without Ren, their group has no 'leader', and if they're going in order, that makes her the temporary 'next in line', so she'll have to suck it up and step it up.
Unconsciously, she tightens her grip on Seto as the silence stretches on, only because as the quietness lingers it allows her mind to wander further. This place, in the big scheme of things, is only temporary -- and the people who disappear and don't return are a good proof of that. She hadn't really put much thought into it until two people she knew well were suddenly gone, and that's sent her mind reeling into so many different places and possibilities, that the thought of never seeing Seto, or a few other people again, is really hitting home hard right now. So when he speaks and breaks the silence, she almost jumps a little bit, but she remains quiet herself for a little while longer as she listens to him.
It's only after he finishes that sentence that she finally lifts her head and peeks up at him with big, watery blue eyes. ] But what if you forgot? Or what if we're all actually dead and this place isn't real at all?
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She hasn't felt this upset or lost since the day she'd said goodbye to Shiho for the last time, in person at least. That sense of loss has hit her like a train, amplified by about ten million, and unfortunately, poor Seto is here having to endure everything that's coming from that. She's looked everywhere, and now she's going to have to take it upon herself to call a little meeting with the girls to talk some things about about Ren's and Akechi's departure and she's not looking forward to that either. But without Ren, their group has no 'leader', and if they're going in order, that makes her the temporary 'next in line', so she'll have to suck it up and step it up.
Unconsciously, she tightens her grip on Seto as the silence stretches on, only because as the quietness lingers it allows her mind to wander further. This place, in the big scheme of things, is only temporary -- and the people who disappear and don't return are a good proof of that. She hadn't really put much thought into it until two people she knew well were suddenly gone, and that's sent her mind reeling into so many different places and possibilities, that the thought of never seeing Seto, or a few other people again, is really hitting home hard right now. So when he speaks and breaks the silence, she almost jumps a little bit, but she remains quiet herself for a little while longer as she listens to him.
It's only after he finishes that sentence that she finally lifts her head and peeks up at him with big, watery blue eyes. ] But what if you forgot? Or what if we're all actually dead and this place isn't real at all?