tabularasa_rp | OPEN - am I blue? you'd be too

Who: Blue Oak and yoooou
Where: Mt. Silver's peak, Heavenly Blanc, and Mortis Lake (maybe Merlaut Apartments later)
When: throughout voidcember!
What: Between Red and Lance vanishing, Ren and Akechi seemingly vanishing, and Mementos, Blue has been having a real Bad Time.
Content Warnings: alcohol abuse, depression

A. Mortis Lake Forest

[When Blue is stressed out, he has a few ways of dealing with it. The healthiest one, thankfully, comes first.]

[Although they may not having all their usual abilities, having his full team of Pokémon back meant that Blue could get back into the swing of a training routine, and that was at least the first step in keeping his mind straight. Mortis Lake was a great place for this- Gyarados chills in the lake waters for a happy soak while Exeggutor sits amongst the other trees next to a meditating Alakazam, watching as Blue directs Arcanine and Pidgeot in Agility training. Eevee is trying to follow along, although even quick as he is, he can't make such powerful single bounds and dashes as the powerful 'windy' Pokémon can.]

Come on, Arcanine! A little quicker! This time, try to make it to that notched tree over there and back before Pidgeot makes it to that treetop and back! [Blue calls, absorbed in his training. He looks... exhausted, almost like he himself has been pushing at this for hours without a break. You'll have to forgive him and his Pokémon if they don't see you directly in the path of their makeshift training arena.]

B. Heavenly Blanc

[Whether it's before the disappearance of his coworker or after, patrons of Heavenly Blanc might find the bar.... less regularly manned than it usually is. At first, maybe one could chalk it up to the strange sleep cycles everyone has found themselves beholden to, but those that catch the bar's usual tender might realize that's not the only reason.]

[Those that knew him well probably knew Blue was a fan of the bottle to begin with, but the way he's slumped over the bar, or in of the booths, or laying spread eagle on the floor probably makes it obvious this isn't just his usual casual, raucous overdrinking. If a patron enters while he's miserably laying about, he'll blink up slowly, squint, and try to roll himself up. Gotta... get back to work...]

Ah, customer... jus' gimme a second...

C. Mt. Silver's Peak

[And when he just can't bring himself to face the outside world anymore, he goes to where's most familiar to him.]

[...It's sort of laughable that it's this place. It hurts, more than it helps; huddled up on the cavern at the peak, Blue looks out over the world of the void that he can see in glimpses between the veils of snow that fall, below the misty cloudcover that swirls this high up. He wonders if Red always looked down over Kanto like this, wanting to return, but unable to bear it. That was probably how it felt, right? ...Who can know what that guy was ever feeling, or thinking...]

[Blue tucks his face into his knees and sniffles, hard and gross, shivering against the warmth of his Arcanine, who whines and nuzzles against him. That idiot.... there was no way of knowing what had happened to him- if he had slipped and fallen down the mountain, if he'd gotten eaten in those terrible corridors full of monsters and mouths- or if he'd simply ...gotten tired of people again, and vanished somewhere. Gotten tired of him again.]

[Well, in the end, as Blue had always supposed back then- he wouldn't blame him.]

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I don't get paid, so who cares? [Slumping further onto the bartop, he starts to ignore the other man, instead giving his attention to good lil' Mugetsu.]

[Yeah, he's a baby.]

[For the moment, that also means he's ignoring the food, but it's more out of spite than anything. He probably should get something in him....]

Why would you care?, [He says bluntly, muffled into an arm.] Asking just cuz that's the thing you're supposed to do is dumb.

(big, drunk baby, kimihiro is too concerned to roll his eyes. even if you don't get paid, people count on you for the service, blue. it would have been better to take a sick day or whatever is your arrangement in this place.

for a second, he considers not answering truthfully, just giving whatever answer the other would assimilate better than a heartfelt one, but... no. perhaps it's precisely what the other needs to hear and it's a lesson he has learned the hard way as well. perhaps blue won't even listen to it.)

Listen, do you realize you don't belong to yourself? When you're going through a hardship, everyone around you feels it too. Whatever it is that you're going through, people are sharing it to some extent, even I, and I barely know you. You don't have to go through things alone when those who see you like this go through it too. Let me help.

['You don't belong to yourself', huh? Blue chews on that for a bit, although all it gets out of him right away is a bit of a defiant snort.]

[...But, he understands what's meant. He doesn't disagree- being affected by the pain of another- it's just that he didn't... really expect anyone to care like that, towards him.]

Depends. Do you even know anyone else here? [He sulkily retorts, and glances towards Watanuki with a pout.]

... From home or in general? (if it was meant as a jab, it didn't quite catch. kimihiro might be pro in pushing people away, but some persist. he's quite close, as much as he'd allow of that, to a few people.)

There's no one from home, even at home. Here, I've made a few acquaintances.

From home, [Blue replies, with a still-pressed frown.]

[Just what the Shellder did that mean? 'Even at home'? His face clearly conveys his confusion at that reply, even though he doesn't really know how to ask about it further. He'll keep that one in his pocket for later...]

So you wouldn't really know, [Blue puffs with the same kind of stubbornness, clearly just being difficult for the sake of it. But it'd probably be less trouble if he didn't pick a fight. After a moment to reconsider, he grumbles and relents,] ...It's not like anything can be done about it, anyway.

(it means that everyone has already passed. :)

kimihiro only leaves from behind the bar to catch a seat next to blue, now that he has already provided him with what he could.)

No, I probably wouldn't. (admittedly, but like, he still has got two ears.) I can listen, though.

What do you mean?

They're gone.

[Blue bites down the bubble of bitterness at the back of his throat and glowers at his water instead, irritably refusing to look at the other boy. Sure, he can listen... and what good would that do?]

So there. Now you know what you wanted to know so badly.

(if there's something kimihiro knows is loss, so he just frowns as he processes what the other man is telling him. mugetsu too feels for blue, snuggling against his cheek as to cheer him up.)

... I thought we couldn't die here.

[Sweet, good Mugetsu... Blue can huff at Watanuki all he likes, but he's still gonna snuggle his cute dragon fox snake thing!!]

...I don't know, [He admits raggedly, and bites down on the emotion that wells up. Were they? He really doesn't...] I don't know if-- something happened to them, or if they got lost somewhere, or just vanished. There's no way to tell.

I just know no one's seen them for a long time. And... yeah, Red, that's normal for him, [Blue bites out bitterly,] But not Lance.... He wouldn't just....

[Blue sighs, resting his weight against the counter.] I just don't know.

(none of them ring any bells, unfortunately, and kimihiro has no way of looking. if he had his powers, this would be fairly easy -- he could locate them with practically most of his tools. not with how he is now, though.)

... I see. Listen, I know how that is, even if not in this context.

(and even if he knows what happened. she dematerialized, little by little, right before his eyes.)

All we can do is look for answers, but not like this, hm?

Look where!?

[Blue raggedly lashes out, glaring at Watanuki. His glower only lasts a moment; he's perfectly self-aware of how petulant he's being, and has enough of a sense of shame to look a little guilty for it.]

....I looked already. Everywhere, tons of times, from the air an' on foot... We didn't find anything.

[He slumps back over the counter.] They're gone.

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