[For a long moment, he doesn't answer. His gaze flicks back down to the rings again, that same surging emotion beating around his heart. He wants people to know that Ren chose him. He wants to rub it in their faces, prove that even someone like him can be happy. Even someone like him can be loved.
But he's scared, too, of what people will say. What it means for their reputations -- for Ren's, more than anything. There have been enough slip-ups already, people who've learned the truth about the kind of person he really is. To have them think less of Ren for it is absolutely unacceptable.]
I can't make your decisions for you, [he says finally, forcing his voice to remain as steady as possible as he draws his fingers back, finally chances a proper look up at him. He's still scared of what this means, still wants to scream and fight and do something with all this anxious energy. But Ren deserves better.
Wasn't it Blue who'd told him to be better for Ren? Maybe something even as small as this can help set him on that path.]
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But he's scared, too, of what people will say. What it means for their reputations -- for Ren's, more than anything. There have been enough slip-ups already, people who've learned the truth about the kind of person he really is. To have them think less of Ren for it is absolutely unacceptable.]
I can't make your decisions for you, [he says finally, forcing his voice to remain as steady as possible as he draws his fingers back, finally chances a proper look up at him. He's still scared of what this means, still wants to scream and fight and do something with all this anxious energy. But Ren deserves better.
Wasn't it Blue who'd told him to be better for Ren? Maybe something even as small as this can help set him on that path.]
Do as you wish.