[It's not what he was intending to say, but it slips out anyway. Oh, fuck this method of communication. It's far too honest for his tastes, too immediate, impossible to edit or think too carefully about. It would have been much better to laugh and reassure Raihan that, "of course he will." God damn.
The ensuing silence is almost nerve-wracking in a way, the idea that he might have insulted Raihan warring with the idea that he simply doesn't care. Yes, he needs these people, but honestly, should he really be so worried about their opinions of him? Probably not. For his part, he rips apart some pieces of his borrowed uniform and starts patching himself up, passively trying to figure out what everyone else is saying through the fissure.]
What? [he says finally when he realizes Raihan is back and addressing him.] I- no. I didn't hear you at all. Were you speaking? What did you see?
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[It's not what he was intending to say, but it slips out anyway. Oh, fuck this method of communication. It's far too honest for his tastes, too immediate, impossible to edit or think too carefully about. It would have been much better to laugh and reassure Raihan that, "of course he will." God damn.
The ensuing silence is almost nerve-wracking in a way, the idea that he might have insulted Raihan warring with the idea that he simply doesn't care. Yes, he needs these people, but honestly, should he really be so worried about their opinions of him? Probably not. For his part, he rips apart some pieces of his borrowed uniform and starts patching himself up, passively trying to figure out what everyone else is saying through the fissure.]
What? [he says finally when he realizes Raihan is back and addressing him.] I- no. I didn't hear you at all. Were you speaking? What did you see?