(open) can't hold on or life won't change

[forethinking]

Who: ren-chan & you!
What: as per usual, a bunch of prompts in the comments!
Where: literally everywhere
When: through the month of ooc october.
Content Warnings: for now, nothing. will be warned in the top level!

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[forethinking]

(Absolutely stunned. His eyes goggle and his mouth opens a little in complete disbelief. He believes Aerith to be the sweetest thing, so...

No??)

They are a robot, after all.

[bridge_princess]

[Yep. Secretly a total badass. She had seen it in Tifa's memories. She was still trying to figure out how to bring it up to Aerith.]

Yeah. And they're the first one I've ever met. They're hard to 'get,' but I like them. And it's really hard to be jealous of them. Trust me. I've triiiiied.

[forethinking]

Why would you even try? I thought you were glad you weren't as much.

(Oh, there he goes.)

[bridge_princess]

Because it's hard not to be 'me?' I've stopped trying since we met. But I tried at first. [Ahem] Remember. This isn't exactly easy for me. I usually think of reasons the first time I meet someone.

[forethinking]

I thought you just got jealous first, analyzed it later.

(If he's being honest.)

[bridge_princess]

That depends on the person? Like any sort of jealousy. Sometimes, it's easy to get jealous. Like... there's people here I got jealous of the moment I met them. Before they said a word.

Others? I naturally look for reasons. Osomatsu, for example? I ... kind of had to look for it with him. Pretty hard.

[forethinking]

(He doesn't have to ask whether Parsee is jealous of him, she has said it. He wonders about the others, and what exactly is it, but it's more morbid curiosity than something he truly needs to know.)

I see.

[bridge_princess]

[She felt a little like explaining, though, so he might get an insight here. Leaning forward, she looked across at him from her knuckles and shrugged.]

Mebbe a little, but think of it this way. I 'am' jealousy so I have to intentionally tone it down and remember not to think that way, otherwise I will.

I see you, I figure out how you're smarter, prettier, more confident, more skilled, more anything than I am. As soon as I can, I figure out how you're better. And if you're like Oso? Kinda... not? In any way? Don't get me wrong. He's a good guy, just sorta pathetic sometimes? But if you're lower tier than me?

I'll figure out how you're handling it better. Better at coping, better attitude. [Hence Oso took work, but she found it. Guy embraced his state perfectly.] If I have a lot of trouble? It nags at me. nettles me. Can't shut it off until I really shove it down, or I find that thing. And then I home in on it.

Because jealousy makes me what I am... but trying not to do that? I ... uh... think I can here. It's just a thousand year old habit. Really really hard to break.

[In short, the answer to "Is she jealous of..." was "Yes." Unless it was Legion, and maybe Cole.]

[forethinking]

(As she speaks, Ren allows his thoughts to make associations. That it is her nature, he has always expected and known - partly why he expected her to find reasons upon seeing things, like everything pulled at the jealousy in her heart.

He isn't sure if the list of qualities she's listing is for him, so there's a little quirk of his brows.

Oso... Ren can only hope his disappearance meant that he went home. He has already searched the Void, bit by bit, but no blood or limb was found. Not even a voice. With a sigh, he finally speaks.)

I don't expect you not to be. Those things take time.

[bridge_princess]

[In the case of that list, it was more 'general' than about him specifically. There were elements of so many people. But that wasn't actually important to understand. He 'got it,' she was pretty sure.

A sigh and she reached out to flick at his nose.]

Still, I'm trying. And that's your fault in part. It just... yeah. Don't need to repeat it.

It's also kind of weird when people complement me. I'm not used to them meaning it.

[forethinking]

(He's happy he has influenced her into breaking her habits, he won't lie, and for a fraction of a second, he may even look smug as he fixes his glasses.)

People seem genuine here, for the most part.

[bridge_princess]

Almost to a fault at times. Though, there's one or two that are pretty cunning about everything.

[Look, she wasn't going to say Akechi. She was just going to look at Ren with a knowing look and THINK IT VERY HARD.]

[forethinking]

(He got the message, thanks... Nothing he can say but the following:)

To each their own, I guess.

[bridge_princess]

Too much work by my standards. I'll take just being me under normal circumstances. [grunt] Being cunning's kind of a lot of effort because you have to seem dumb when you're really smart.

Whaaaatever.

[forethinking]

(He laughs after she drags the last word.)

Other than all this, all good?

[bridge_princess]

Other than the persistent sensation of waiting for the other shoe to drop? I'm doing just ducky. No real problems, and I seem to be coping for the moment.

It makes me think something'll come up soon enough, but for now I'm ok.