tabularasa_rp | ( open ) it hurts i can't lie, remember those times

Who: izumi and you!
What: post-event stuff; dealing w dying and exploring the void and all that
Where: anywhere you want, babey
When: first half of november
Content Warnings: tba

[ even though izumi still has to recover from the shitstorm that is last month, he really isn't the homebody type. he does spend the first few days of the month cooped up in his shared room with leo to recuperate though, before putting on something warm and set out for the day. he has a bunch of places to visit now that this world spawned up a couple of new ones, and he heard that pieces of florence has manifested here...? ]

i. galleria de funghi

[ oh how he wished he didn't fucking ask.

like okay, to be fair he hasn't dropped by any of florence's hit tourist spots back at his world since he likes to keep himself busy, but this certainly isn't the Galleria he's acquainted with. what the fuck. izumi explores the Galleria with a look of utmost bewilderment on his face, and when he gets to the infamous David statue -- ]

What. The fuck.

[ noooo who did this to you king. it's so absurd that izumi just... starts snickering to himself, his shoulders wracking in laughter. yep, he's finally lost it, because his sense of humor (if he even has any) doesn't usually stoop this low.

he can also be found with a basket, picking out mushrooms as if he's at a grocery store. at some point he's holding two of them - a handful of button mushrooms and a large portobello mushroom - and tries to make small talk with whomever's nearby.]

You know other places where I can cook? I don't wanna keep barging at the cafe all the time.

ii. trains

[ at some point, izumi will be caught up in a thunderstorm on the way home, so that means the train stations should be up and running right now. riding one brings forth a wave of nostalgia in him as he dreamily watches the shifting landscape outside the window --

until the thunderstorm stops. and so does the train.

ugh. he stomps over to the sliding doors and attempts to pry them open, but his twink arms are no match for it. defeated, he kicks the stupid doors in frustration. ]

Shit!

iii. yumenoshibuya academy

[ that's what he's calling it, okay! it just rolls off the tongue better.

anyway, the combination school/mall has become his solace over the past few months, loathe as he is to admit it. there are some places he hasn't gotten to yet, like looking through their wares. sadly there isn't much to buy here, so he has no choice but to peruse their jewelry and makeup collection, holding up an eyeliner and testing it out on his own. he can totally feel when someone's watching him though, so he's going to turn to the person responsible a little too abruptly, ruining his eyeline in the process. ]

Oi, stay quiet. I'm armed and I know how to use this, you know.

[ he clearly does know how to apply mascara that can kill a man, so don't underestimate him. ]

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[ let me know if you wanna do something else outside of these prompts! feel free to PM me or ping me at romanticizes! izumi can also be hit up at his shared room with leo if your character wants to visit him during his recuperation from death. ]

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[Cole mostly uses the tracks as a footpath while avoiding the trains themselves, and so it doesn't take him long to figure out he should stay off the tracks when it's storming somewhere. He was waiting out the latest storm when the train happened to come to a stop nearby, and... is that someone inside?]

[Always here to help, he makes his way to where he heard the muffled cursing, glancing through the windows... oh.]

Are you all right, Sena?

[It may be a bit muffled by the door in the way, but that's fine since he finds the edge of the door and pries it open shortly after; he may not be a tank, but he can defeat a train door easily enough.]

[ izumi isn't sure what's more surprising here - meeting cole in the wild after all the bullshit they'd gone through in meatmentos, or the fact that this frail-looking twink was able to pry a couple of metal doors open.

he stands back in any case, eyes blinking rapidly. ]

I'm all right, but-- [ shakes his head ] No, what am I saying? I'm supposed to ask you that!

I'm not hurt anymore. That was only in the dream. It's just a scar now.

[Cole dreams shouldn't be able to give you scars-]

I was hoping to find you. The nightmare was hurting both of you, but you saw through it sooner. You were able to help Leo, right?

[He doesn't know what happened after he left, and he's spoken to Leo since then so he knows he's at least in one piece, but... he just wants to know.]

I-I see.

[ izumi would know, since he has a rather huge scar that covers his entire back. this is a pretty bad time to talk about it though, now that cole has brought him up...

he nods slowly. ]

Yeah, he should be fine now. Honestly, I didn't even think that it was a nightmare at the time. I just thought that Leo-kun had gone too far.

[ and then he bows. see, he can be a polite boy. ]

In any case, I apologize for his sake. We both had no idea what came over us.

[He hopes Izumi is right and Leo will be fine, because he can't read his thoughts and feelings anymore... though Leo is more open about those than most, at least.]

[But he's spoken to Leo already, for better or worse, and he's not the only one he was concerned about. His head tilts slightly at the bowing. He's not sure why he's doing that.]

You don't have to. I knew it was a dream, though it was hard to tell how real it might be when we woke up.

[Mostly not real, fortunately, but he knows that much fear and hurt left behind more than just scars.]

When you were in the nightmare, you thought you deserved to be there, that it was your fault. Why did you think that?

[Things had been a bit tense and distracting at the time, to say the least, but those are the sort of feelings that call out to him the loudest.]

Well...

[ he scratches the back of his neck. man, where does he even start. though he supposes that he owes cole an explanation back there, since leo isn't... that good at explaining sometimes...

so he steps out of the train and starts walking, urging cole to come follow him. a long walk would be perfect for an equally long talk like this. ]

You saw what he did there, right? No, of course you did. You got the front-row seats and more. [ ah. ] To give you a short rundown, since we'll be walking in circles for hours for this - Leo-kun used to be pretty obsessed with me. And it sounds conceited coming from me, I know, but...

[ he looks at the horizon, heaving out a sigh. ]

I was the reason why he turned out that way. He didn't use to be like that.

[ that savage leo that pops up every now and then. ]

[Cole follows along easily enough. He'd be fine with walking around for hours, but that's neither here nor there.]

Yes. He didn't say it was you, but I thought it might be.

[The nightmare pretty much confirmed it.]

Leo isn't like that anymore, though. Not when he's awake. He remembered my memory of when I used to be like that too. I was willing to hurt and kill anyone in my way to protect my only friend, and Leo worried for me. He knew it was wrong, so he wanted to make sure I knew it was wrong, too. He's a kind person.

[He doesn't quite understand one thing, though-]

Rhys isn't the reason I became that way. He didn't tell me to do the things that I did... I caused him hurt too, without meaning to. Did you tell Leo to be a sword that puts down whatever comes between you?

[Because that's the only way he'd think of Izumi as the "reason" he was that way. But even then...]

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[ izumi can only groan internally along the way, as cole says his spiel. well, he wasn't really groaning at what cole has to say, because he is pretty sympathetic, but... why was leo even going around telling people about them? now izumi's going to have to explain his side of the story when he really just wants to bury the hatchet and be done with it.

this world sure has a way on bringing up the past in terrible ways, huh.

sigh. ]

...I never told him that. But I'd be lying if I didn't think about using him when he offered at the time..

[ he didn't deserve to be ~~simped~~ served like that. even now, izumi still has some doubts about what leo sees in him, but that's neither here or there. ]

You have to understand, though. We were fighting our old comrades at the time. Comrades that Leo-kun thought of as his best of friends, only to find out that they'd only liked him for his songs. Like, that's pretty messed up, right? Why did they even say it to his face like that?

[ it was said like a rhetorical question. izumi clenches his fists without realizing it. ]

And so, he pledged his allegiance to me when there was no one else to turn to. I wasn't about to leave him there, either. It's just... [ ... ] Well, as time went on, he started hurting everybody with his song. Even the audience.

[He listens to what Izumi has to say. It fills in some gaps he'd wanted to ask Leo about, since he doesn't actually know much beyond the memory he saw, and what Leo chose to share.]

That's why he thought he had no worth, without his songs.

[Does he still feel that way, or is it better now?]

[But he's talking to Izumi, right now. All that fighting in the nightmare, is that what it was about? Clinging to Izumi, hurting everyone with his music?]

I don't know what happened to make him stop hurting, but even after that you stayed. You're still here, with Leo. That's good.

[It's not a flowery way of saying it, but he's sincere. That Izumi stayed and Leo kept his friend after all that is the best outcome he could hope for.]

...I stayed for as long as I could. But even I had limits, you know?

[ he could always expound on that but he really does hate talking about this, which is evident on that disgruntled look on his face. sorry, cole, but izumi just isn't the type to talk about deep stuff like that - even if he owes the guy. ]

Now, can we talk about something else, please? Only interviewers get to inquire shit like that to me. [ he takes a deep breath to calm himself. ] All I ask... is to get along with Leo-kun even if he starts spouting some inane bullshit. He'd appreciate that a whole lot.

[ ... ]

Are you sure you're fine, though? You didn't get a scar from that whole thing, did you?

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