(open) your heart is so beautiful, it's almost nauseating

[kimihiros]

Who: kimihiro watanuki & friends
What: january adventures
Where: adventurous places
When: jan 2021, we made it guys
Content Warnings: anxiety, alcohol, sad hours


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[kimihiros]

(kimihiro, for half a second, may have gotten angry and may have even blushed about it, but before he can get defensive, he decides against it. instead, he just caresses the handle of the pipe with his thumb, a heavy, sorrowful sigh leaving him.)

... I miss her.

[bluecastleace]

[Iwaizumi sighs a bit, finally flopping down to sit beside Kimihiro with his knees up and his arms resting against them.]

And just what the hell makes you think I don’t understand that? It makes sense you’d miss someone you care about, but do you really think she’d want you hiding under a tree all day punishing your liver?

[Not that that’s how that works here, or for Kimihiro period, but it’s the principal of the thing. His voice is softer when he speaks again.]

It sucks. It hurts. I get that more than you’re giving me credit for. I really do.

[kimihiros]

I've been waiting for her for a hundred years. Probably more.

(and that's the part he feels like iwaizumi can't relate. that he couldn't understand. she's gone, and trust him, he has searched from her from the depths to the highs of the spirit world, and nothing. she's nowhere to be found.)

And here, I don't even have our home to wait for her.

[bluecastleace]

[There’s someone too that Iwaizumi would wait for for one hundred years or more, he thinks, but he won’t say so. This isn’t about him, and it would be too hard to admit either way.]

Let me ask you something then, Kimihiro.

Did she ask you to wait for her like that, or are you putting that on yourself?

You deserve a break, you know. No one who cares about someone else would condemn them to grieve that long. You’ve got to go easy on yourself. You’ve just got to.