If... I'm right, I have to talk to her. Just telling you's not going to do anything. What good would that do? You already know, and she already knows I might. I have to actually deal with her, and I'm not doing that.

Nope. Screw that. [Cough] I don't need her to say "I'm sorry but no. I don't feel that way." I can cough up cherry blossoms for a while over that.

[Except it got much worse and she damned well knew that.]