"... No, I won't let it go that far," she said, coughing raggedly into her hand. "I won't let myself become a monster of that sort just to avoid talking to her. She'd never forgive that." Not to mention a few others would be really pissed at her. She could do this. Eventually. Probably. Hopefully.

"If it's like that... then it's not that you have to deal with," she grunted, sour in her voice, trying to stay calm. "We ... We just have to figure out what's going on before you end up a zombie. Figure out what you have to do."