open | everybody knows that the captain lied

[abeautifulgame]

Who: Damien Brenks + You
What: Prompts below.
Where: All over the place.
When: Mostly centered around the event, to start, but if you want something before or after, hit me up!
Content Warnings: Body horror as per the event.

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[abeautifulgame]

[he notes that, and leans forward a little, pouncing on that]

Stupid enough to practically admit to it. [a beat] No offense, of course. [well, a little offense, but it's not his fault he's the smartest guy in the room] What's her name?

[this is much better than talking about his own issues!]

[bridge_princess]

Of course...

[She made a face into her drink. Ok, she could secretly admit it to herself. It was on her mind nearly constantly, partially because of the Hanahaki. Every time she coughed up a red petal it made her think about the fact that she hadn't decided if she wanted that girl, and the feelings got worse. Every time it was yellow, she remembered Squall's stupid face and she wanted to take his place. When they were together it just made things worse.

Frown. Grunt. Fiiiiiine.]

Not admitting to anything, because it wouldn't do me a lick of good to admit to it unless it was to her. but if I were that stupid, it definitely wouldn't be over a dark-haired girl with a thing for crossbows and a dog that's always following her around. I absolutely would not be trying to figure out what I want with someone that stubborn about wanting to be close to me even though I told her how I might feel and how jealous I got normally.

[abeautifulgame]

I've seen her around, but I don't think we've met.

[to the point where he's not even sure he would have known her name, if Parsee had mentioned it, but] But if you've already told her how you feel ... [then why's she still apparently so upset about all of this?] Did she turn you down?

[bridge_princess]

... she's sort of hard to miss, yeah. And no, she didn't. She... knows I might be interested. [Cough] She knows I was thinking about it, trying to figure out my feelings. And she told me she'd think about if I asked. She definitely didn't say no, but she also definitely didn't say yes.

Ngh... but this stupid disease is forcing my hand a bit. [Hack] It doesn't do me any good to tell yo this. I told, like, four people besides her. My possible interest is not a secret, which means if I have something to confess...

I have to decide, and I think I know what that is, and I have to tell her. Because of course I do.

[abeautifulgame]

[now, hold on a second]

You mentioned there being an elephant in the room. [and that being related to whatever's wrong with them] And now this. [that whether or not she tells Rinoa how she feels is related to it, too, so] So -- what? The Void wants us to spill our little secrets?

[or share their feelings. he's not sure which would be worse]

[bridge_princess]

[She thumped her chest after a cough and winced. Never... do that... again. A grow and she clenched her eyes shut.] Feels like Hananaki. Stupid magical disease back home. People in love. Had to confess and get closure, but most refused n just died.

Might not be exactly the same. You know how it is around here. Nothing works right, even diseases. Probably have to figure out what you're not dealing with and have to deal with.

[abeautifulgame]

Considering love doesn't factor into this, for me? [his love left him. he's pretty sure he was in love with Melinoë, anyway] More than likely.

[a beat]

Hell if I know what I'm not dealing with, though.

[that's a lie. he can think of more than a few things. there's his grief, still. the fact that he's been meaning to tell Tifa the truth for months, now. his familial feelings for Akechi, that they've never actively addressed for both their sakes. how much it hurts, for everyone to have moved out of the Merlaut all of a sudden. the fact that literally all of his close CR is going to drop in the next month. there's a laughable number of things he's not dealing with, he just -- doesn't want to deal with them]

[bridge_princess]

Ngh... so, if you're the type for introspection, you don't have to tell me. But if you can think of anything you've been holding onto all this time? Something you haven't given up on? Haven't dealt with. that's probably it.

[She coughed into her hand.]

N... if it deals with people here, well... you probably won't actually deal with it by talking to me. I guess I arguably qualify as a decent listener... but I'm not them, am I? Just... like you're not her.

[abeautifulgame]

[he hums -- no, she's not them. mostly. at a loss for anything else, anything more personal, he shrugs, offers:] Part of it is probably feeling like I've been abandoned. [a beat, then by way of explanation:] The Merlaut is from my world. [and just about everyone's moved out of it]

[ ... is this helping? no, he still feels like that elephant in the room is sitting on his chest]

[bridge_princess]

Well, good to know where that came from anyway. I'd been a little curious. But I'm pretty sure you're dancing around the topic here.

[She coughed into her hand and laughed with a pained wince.]

Like I have room to talk, avoiding talking to some girl because I'd rather hurt like hell than be told No.

[abeautifulgame]

[he shrugs] The hotel, the train -- both mine. [he makes no secret of that. just everything else] Though, I'm not sure how I could be more blunt about my feelings.

[isn't saying he feels abandoned enough???]

[bridge_princess]

... If it doesn't get better talking to me, there may be someone here you need to talk to.. And I suspect you'd know deep down who it is. And ... much as I'd be the sort of gossipy bitch to press? Not gonna.

[She coughed once into her hand.]

You're not really pressing me, and I don't want to push too far with you. You have to figure this sort of thing out for yourself. It's inside yourself after all.