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Change is in the Air (OTA)
Who: Parsee and you!
What: December Catch-All
Where: The Shrine, Bridge and Around
When: Any time in December
Content Warnings: *laughs* nothing serious. She's angsty as hell about the shrine change, but it's all harmless today. I'll update if necessary

* Shrine Freakout * General Shrine * The Blank Shrine * Mt Silver * The Beach * Hammerhead *
* Widcard *
(Haha, I can't resist poking some fun at Parsee. Top Levels Below)
What: December Catch-All
Where: The Shrine, Bridge and Around
When: Any time in December
Content Warnings: *laughs* nothing serious. She's angsty as hell about the shrine change, but it's all harmless today. I'll update if necessary

* Shrine Freakout * General Shrine * The Blank Shrine * Mt Silver * The Beach * Hammerhead *
* Widcard *
(Haha, I can't resist poking some fun at Parsee. Top Levels Below)
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... [Sigh] You... realize that it might be because I wish I was as important to you as he is, right? I don't know if that's what's going through my head. Most people push me away when I get this jealous, so I never explore the why. But you have to realize that might be it, don't you?
[She closed her eyes. Rinoa would probably forgive that too. She was pretty sure of it, because it just seemed in her nature. She almost wanted to tell her that if he were here, she wouldn't be able to appease them both. You couldn't make everyone happy. In her mind, someone always lost, usually her.]
But... if you're ok with it, I... might want to figure out why I'm jealous for once.
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If you wanna figure out why you're jealous, I'll support you. I'm not just gonna push you away for feelings you can't help.
[ And what if that is it? For her part, Rinoa's never dealt with something quite like this before. But regardless... ]
Let's just take it one step at a time, okay? And if that's what it turns out to be, we'll figure it out when we get there. You know?
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Her face was beet red. Her fingers clenched a little.]
A step at a time... and ... if that's what it turns out to be... you'll just have to decide how you feel about that in turn right?
[Because that's how this sort of thing worked, wasn't it? And now she was being unfair and implanting the thought in Rinoa's head. What if!]
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She shakes her head, reaching out and once more brushing her fingers against the other's wrist, an almost patting motion with the intent of helping her calm down where she's burning up with embarrassment. She's not about to make promises she can't keep, but something she can promise at least is... ]
I'll think about it carefully, okay? If you're going to take such big steps, then it's the least I can do.
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Thank you... for not making promises... still can't believe you'd say that much.
[After all, she knew there was Squall. She remembered being in space, the glimmer of regret, fear and hope. How long had they ended up in space? If this just friendship and she was coping with her own stupid psyche that was easy. Give her a month and she'd figure something out. Probably. But if she was actually interested in this girl? Squall was still very real, right?
But Rinoa hadn't just flat out said 'you understand I can't do that' or the like. She'd only promised that she'd think about it.]
But... thank you for offering to at least consider. I really wouldn't have thought you would.
[After all, Squall had to be a better choice? Ngh... she could control the jealousy, but it was definitely there.]
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But she's not going to completely shut the other down, either. Parsee deserves more than that. ]
It's the least I can do. I told you I'd help you, remember?
[ Speaking of promises, it had been one she'd made to herself, too; to help Parsee to open up to others, just like she knew she could. ]
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Don't you dare say you're doing it to help me if you say yes. At that point... if we have that talk, it's a different talk. And... [Her hand moved down, touching just beneath the collarbone. Just a tap, just a reminder.] It's about what's in here.
But... that's... not for now. Just thanks. For being a friend.
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I know, I know. What I meant is... whatever it ends up being, I'll stick by your side, okay?
[ It's her way of saying that Parsee won't lose her. As far as she's concerned, they've come too far for that. ]
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I... I trust you. You've stuck with me so far. And... yeah, I think... I think that's enough about that. I don't think either of us is entirely ready to say more. Just...
Think about it ok?
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Okay. And if you need me, you know where to find me, right?
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I will. I'll try not to be a stranger. Even if you have to take time for yourself I might still track you down.
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I'll remember that.
[ Not that taking time for herself is really how she usually operates, anyway. The nightmare just took a toll on her like nothing else ever had. ]
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You're allowed to disagree, but you have rotten taste in friends, Rinoa. [She winked.] I'm just going to say that right now.
[The fact that she managed a little laugh as she said that? It was clear she was kidding, mostly.]
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You know, I'm glad you already know I'm gonna disagree with you!
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[She dusted her clothes a little, smoothing them once they were both up on their feet and looking over at Rinoa quietly, reaching up to scratch the back of her head.]
Uh... I know this was a social call, but did you want to use the shrine at all?
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Um, I guess this is gonna sound really weird to you, Parsee, but... I've never actually used a shrine before. We don't really have them back home, you know?
[ Still, from what she understands, back where the other is from, they're meant to offer her a kind of power, so... ]
Would you show me?
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uh... [Swallow] But before we start, you realize that this is my shrine, so you'd be praying to me, right?
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She smiles. ]
That's okay. I don't know if it will help you in any way now that we're here, but if it does anything at all, it'll just be good, right?
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[GAH! She was the one getting prayed to. This was supposed to help Rinoa! Parsee sighed and walked over to the altar, motioning for Rinao to join her and taking out a piece of paper.]
So... right. The idea is you leave an offering on the altar. You get my attention, which you... really have right now, and you write your prayer on the slip. We'll try to burn it.
Maybe encourage the fire. It's still learning how to burn things. And then... I bless you.
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But it feels wrong to keep asking questions. Parsee said to help someone she cares about, so... ]
Please protect the people I love.
[ It's probably not a great prayer, she thinks, but it's the first thing that comes to mind; she writes the words in neat cursive across the paper before following Parsee's instructions by placing it into the fire, watching as the flames lick around it, as if testing. ]
Come on, fire; we need to burn the paper for the prayer to work, y'know? You can do it!
[ Well, Parsee did say encourage. ]
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[Fwoosh, fizzle. Puff! There was a curl of smoke there and Parsee practically jumped. Her eyes went wide. She grinned a little. The Void really was kind of predictable in this. If they kept trying, it was eventually going to burn properly. So she could rely on this.]
Heh... not quite, but you're getting there. [She looked up at Rinoa and gave her a sheepish grin.] It's like my water clock. It's going to take a few times to make fire work right, but eventually...
[She pocketed the prayer and coughed into her hand, before putting a hand out. When she did, something pushed from her to Rinoa. The other girl would probably notice the rest of the day was really lucky somehow. A little bit of good fortune never hurt anyone, right?]
I... can't quite reach your friends at home. But I can bless people here. And if I bless you, you'll be better able to help them, right?
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The fire may not have sparked enough to completely burn the paper down, but it's a good enough start, and she finds a small smile on her lips as her friend pockets it again and reaches a hand toward her.
Is it just her imagination, or does she actually feel something pass from Parsee to her?
She nods. ]
Like this, I can help anyone. Everyone.
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Y...Yeah, that's the idea. I bless you, and you're better able to go out there and be that heroic type we both know you are.
[She was not going to admit that in the back of he head was the recognition that 'help everyone' meant Rinoa would probably help her as well. It did bring a little color to her cheeks, though. She tried not to be jealous of the other people Rinoa was bound to help. Tried and failed, but she did try.]
There's not a lot I can do, but none of us have whatever power we had normally so I guess it's something that I can do anything.
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I dunno, I feel like maybe these powers are kind of better than what you had before. But maybe that's just me, you know?
[ In her mind, blessing people is always better than cursing them! It's exciting to her that, no matter what strange things the Void has thrown at them so far, there's always the potential for people to improve somehow. ]
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Well, I mean... it's definitely more helpful to you than manipulating your jealousy. Other than reducing the envy inside of you, which isn't quite as important I'd think? Yeah, it's probably a more useful skill to have.
Not quite as 'powerful,' but it's definitely a lot less trouble.
[She was trying not to be embarrassed about it, but it was obvious she liked hearing that from her friend.]
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