[closed] I don't believe in much but I believe in you

[halloflamer]

Who: Blue + company!
What: Sometimes you pine so hard you turn into actual pine(?); Closed toplevels for the event!
Where: Various!
When: Mid-February, mostly
Content Warnings: Probable graphic illness/blood descriptions, as you'd expect!



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[halloflamer]

O-oh...........

[Yeah... He'd almost forgotten about that. Blue visibly clenches up a little bit, then wilts, erupting into a tiny coughing fit as he fails to push his feelings about those memories back down.]

[He doesn't want to make Turing feel bad about it, though! He tries to wave a hand to dismiss it away- no use being guilty about it, they were telling it like it is, right? And Blue sure is avoiding it...]

[Still, though- by the time he manages to recover from his coughing, and hear Turing's kind words about Daisy, he has to give it pause. They weren't... wrong. And Blue knew that- he knew that she did what she did because she cared about him, and was looking out for what was best for him, even when as a kid, it'd felt overbearing.]

Yeah... You're right, [He grins weakly, and reaches out to give Turing a little poke in their 'cheek', lovingly.] I'm forgetting the important stuff, right?

[...There was more to it than that. More than he'd admit to most people here. He still felt he wasn't deserving of a lot of the positive attention, because he hid the parts of him that were terrible, most times. But then again, Turing had seen some of it too, right? Even if it had been pretty minor pettiness....]

[But maybe it was okay, to feel like he could be worried after. He rubs at his chest, as if to ease the coughing.] Maybe some positive thinkin'll help me out.

[begetblue]

[ That poke was, without a doubt, going to leave a smudge on their screen, but for Blue's sake, they endured it. Though it was an affectionate gesture, so saying they "endured it" definitely wasn't right. It was such a small thing in the grand scheme of things, but it made them smile regardless, and Turing did very little to hold it back. Actually, speaking of affectionate gestures...

They climbed up with only a little difficulty (honest!) and reached out to give Blue a pat on the head just as he had done for them before. ]

It's okay. I know it's not typical for humans to have perfect recall, so I'll remind you if that people care about you if it seems like you're forgetting that.

[ Were they trying to emulate the senpai and/or older sibling energy that Blue had shown to them in the past? Well, maybe. They also perked right up at the idea of positive thinking. ]

Yes! 'Mind over matter,' as the saying goes. I'll help you think of some positive things as well.