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(By the time Akechi joins, Ren was already soaking in the calmness, almost immune to the fish moving up and down and sometimes booping his ribs. He might even take a very quick shower again before leaving... It almost makes him feel like a person after months of not feeling like one! Sleep would definitely be the next big thing for him to feel less emotionally exhausted, but it would be a lie to say this isn't helping.

Akechi's reflexes break him from the trance, though! He jumps a little, eyes snapping open.)

Did they bite you?!

Of course not.

[He's very still for a moment, then lunges into the water where he thought he saw a shadow. Unfortunately, he doesn't catch a fish with his bare hands, and he hisses another curse through his teeth.]

Perhaps later we should remove them to the river? Or cook them and eat them for their intrusion.

Things don't die. I am not eating something alive.

(Also, what's this 'we' should cook it... Are you lending a hand...

Ren shakes his head, trying not to let his laugh show.)

You're too tense. Relax.

(A tentatively hand on his shoulder. Either Akechi hisses or he allows it and they never speak about it again.)

[He is willing to sit and watch you cook, Ren! If they're alive, all the better.

His eyes widen, but he manages not to flinch when Ren's hand touches his shoulder. But unlike Ren's request, if anything, he simply tenses further. How could he not, when it's an abrupt reminder that they are naked together? He glowers at Ren's hand, but behind the reflexive distaste at being unexpectedly touched, there's panic that kicks his heart into overdrive. It's affection that he so desperately craves, and yet can't allow himself. Can't allow Ren this close.

He scoffs and dips his shoulder to dislodge his grip, moving a few feet away.]

If anything, you aren't tense enough. If you get bitten, don't come crying to me.

(He respects the cue to retreat, so he does, the arm moving to rest on the edge of the bath, fingers gently playing with the water.

The realization that they ARE INDEED in a bath hit him when Akechi basically swims away. He goes back to eyes closed and head tilted back, he's refusing to watch Akechi and have a repeat of his struck face.)

These ones don't have killer fins.

(Should be fine.)

That we've seen.

[Has anyone been feeding the koi in the bath? Well, if they leave them be for long enough, presumably they'll eat themselves and-- well. They won't die. His lip curls in distaste at what that might do to the bath, even as he leans against his own side of the bath, arms outstretched to either side. Normally he'd be much more polite about being in a bath, staying drawn in to himself, but it's not like there's anyone else here to complain about taking up space.]

I think we should remove them as soon as possible, though. If things get hungry but can't die, well. It will become a quite literal bloodbath.

[He gestures. Imagine the water! How disgusting. Definitely a better thing to think about than his rival, naked, across from him.]

I'll see if I can make a net.

(Shouldn't be too hard with all the things laying aorund at the beach. Keeping his hands occupied have been one of the best things he had going on in the void, be it arranging flowers, making coffee or curry, or even making tools for when it's needed.

He agrees though that the bathhouse should be taken care of, though. It might be challenging to transport them, assuming no more will just appear.)

We should wash our clothes as well.

Good.

[If no one else will take care of it, perhaps they (Ren) should. It's a pleasant place to spend time, if nothing else.

He opens one eye when Ren mentions about their clothes, though, almost thoughtfully. It's not a bad idea; though the washing machines don't work, they could certainly use water from the showers and make a fire to dry them, and he's fairly certain he'd seen detergent by the machines themselves.]

That isn't a bad idea at all.

[-And without waiting, he pushes himself out of the bath entirely, grabbing his towel to wrap around himself. He doesn't have a second set of clothes, after all, so it only makes sense to start washing them now and soak while they dry by a fire.]

(Ren is so whipped and we all know it... (:

He wasn't expecting the commotion, so he opens one eye - did a fish bite him or touch him again? ... And then he sees a very naked Akechi?? They have been like this for a while now, but it's different when suddenly he just ups and leaves...??? And Ren had no time to think of anything else to gaze?? Him being the first thing in his view point???

Good thing Akechi is leaving and can't see the blush. Begone.)

[Luckily for Ren, Akechi isn't looking at him. He's busy scrounging around for a bucket and the aforementioned detergent so he can start washing his clothes.

...Oh, and rocks. With a frown of distaste, he looks over his clothes, sighs, and pulls his loafers back on to venture outside and grab two rocks, hurrying back inside before anyone can see him in his towel. It's just highly inappropriate!]

I'll get the fire going to dry them, [he calls from the adjacent room, finally providing an explanation as to what he's doing.]

(Riding out the heart attack, Ren just watches with a tilted head and the biggest frown known to mankind. Where... What?

Sorry, he tuned out and only returned to Earth when Akechi spoke again. He blinks, kind of trying to pull himself back and now it's his turn to leave, careful steps out as he gathers his clothes. Having two outfits is a priviledge, but also, twice the work.)

[Akechi glances up when he hears the other leave the bath, nodding once he realizes what he's doing. It should feel awkward, staying beside Ren in nothing but his towel, but the truth is, it's just so easy to feel comfortable around him. Ren is a constant, steadying presence no matter where he is or what he's doing.

So maybe paradoxically, that's why he feels like the tension between them is thicker than the humidity. He can't allow himself to be lulled into a false sense of security by that comfort. Can't afford to keep letting Ren in past his metaphorical walls. Not just for Ren's sake, but for his own, as well. If they ever make it back...

He scowls down at the soapy water in the bucket and scrubs his clothing harder. Fuck.]

I think we'll need to find where the water from the river feeds into the bath to stop any more fish from getting in, [he observes finally, voice carefully neutral as he finishes the last of his clothing and wrings them out before hanging them to dry.] I'm certain we can find some kind of suitable method for blocking wildlife once we know what, exactly, we're dealing with.

(Ren follows the bucket idea, taking his spare outfit from the locker and tossing it inside along with everything but the grey coat. That seems like it really should wait for the washing machine and Ren hasn't been wearing it so much - the outfit is comfortable and feels nice enough even without it.

If Akechi is observant enough to look at the clothes Ren starts to scrub next to him, he will notice some holes and rips in the inner fabric of his black blazer. To the words, Ren can't help but to notice the change in tone... Did he see him blush? Is he still blushing? (Yes, just a little.) Did he say something? Well. No use dwelling, so he just nods to the words.)

We can inspect this later. I'm sure I can put something together with all the things at the beach.

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[Akechi's own winter coat would certainly do better being dry cleaned than thrown in the wash, uniform or not, so he doesn't even try. Clothes finished, he dumps the soapy water down the shower drain and replaces it, taking one of the as-of-yet-unused buckets and turning it over near the hanging clothes. A few strikes of the rocks, and he starts a small fire inside the bucket, positioned far enough away from everything else that it won't catch and burn things they need.]

Excellent. I'm sure people will be grateful for your accomplishment.

[Is he assuming Ren will do all the work and thus take all the credit? Yes. He reaches up to spread his clothes out for easier drying, then stretches, feeling his shoulders pop. Try not to stare at all that toned muscle he's showing off, not even on purpose this time.]

Is your dagger ripping your jacket?

[Yeah, he noticed. Part of his attempt to look anywhere but at Ren.]

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(Since when has that been a factor in anything Ren does? Acknowledgement came organically, but it has never been a motivating factor. After all, who but his people know who he is and what has done for the country? Never cared about it at all... So naturallly, his face expresses his conflict with Akechi's words, wrinkled nose and all.

Either way, Ren wasn't expecting the coat to be a matter of conversation... Specialy now that Ren became Distracted. Akechi gets a vey silent sigh, but more of a glare. He's... Trying so hard.)

Eh- No.

Tifa-san and I had to tend to an animal that entered the bar. I used the blazer to calm it down and capture it.

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I'm surprised Tifa-san couldn't take care of it herself.

[She really does punch hard... whatever animal it was, he's certain she could quite literally punch it back out onto the streets. Not just a bartender, but a bouncer as well.

He arches an eyebrow at the glare, hand dropping to his hip as he meets Ren's glare with a challenging stare of his own.]

Is something the matter?

She was scared.

(This was going towards the sparring he witnessed, albeit shortly... Until he's betrayed by his own expressions.

Ren doesn't curse himself, but there's a very long strong of those running through his mind right now... He'd be fine with the question, dodge it, ignore it, continue scrubbing his clothes like there was nothing tugging at his heart strings... But paired with the piercing challenge that he received with the gaze? Maybe too much for him.

It possibly wasn't even on purpose, Ren can acknowledge that, but he... Can't just let Akechi give him one of those and immediately deflate. It's not even an option, specially with how Akechi catching up on it was Ren's fault. He owns his actions, after all.

It's silent for a while, Ren's own gaze not wavering for a second as he tries to study that stupid glare he is receiving... And he breaks. A hand moves to the damp hair shortly before his lips find their way to Akechi's pair. It... Wasn't a gentle one, but much between them isn't. Instead, it was a frustrated, angry answer to the question he had received.

You're a pain, Akechi.)

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[Akechi doesn't know what that glare is supposed to mean, hence, the question. If he was going to be scolded for sounding like he was mocking either Tifa or Ren himself, perhaps, though he'd expect disappointment rather than anger. Anger is a good look on him, he thinks, even if it's not an emotion he usually associates with the other.

He opens his mouth to ask once again, or perhaps taunt him, "Cat got your tongue, Ren?" but before he can form any words there's a hand on his hair and lips crashing against his own in an ungentle kiss. For a moment, he's frozen in place from the sheer shock of it, every muscle snapping into a rigid uncertainty as even his own thoughts scramble into an incoherent mess.

Then, as if something chaining him back had snapped all at once, Akechi surges forward with a low growl, tilting his head to deepen the kiss in something almost animalistic in its unpracticed fierceness.]

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(Akechi's non-reaction was fair, should it have been the other way around, Ren's own response wouldn't be any different. Ren expected... A punch? To be scolded? Even an unfiltered in strength push was counted in the list of actions Akechi was likely to take once the shock passed.

It is when he actually kisses Ren back that his own brain melts. There was a hope that he would, but it just didn't feel probable when he first made the decision. The resolve gets his heart racing as Akechi is matching him in mood and intent, and God forbid Akechi touches him - it feels like one could feel the thumping loud and clear through his skin.

The deepening of the kiss is more than welcome, even if it's messy on both accounts. It's not like Ren had this experience before, but at least he has watched romance enough so that it's not an absolutely disaster, as it had the potential to be. It gets more aggressive on Ren's part as his tongue enters the equation, almost to show Akechi what the matter is.

Him.)

[The roaring in his ears as he lets himself kiss Ren is almost like the rush he gets when going all-out in combat. He hasn't felt like this since he ripped his own mind apart to try to kill Ren and his friends, slaughter them like the weak trash he thought they were. It's a hungry madness as one bare hand comes up to grip Ren's shoulder, nails biting into his skin as he sucks at Ren's tongue with another heady growl.

But louder than the roaring is the piercing scream of panic slicing through the haze, the scream that he can't do this. It's not that he just isn't allowed something like this for himself, it's that he can't. Not with Ren. Not even if Ren is the only person he'd ever imagined doing something like this with, not even if Ren is the only person he would ever do something like this with. It's just a kiss, but he's already made too many mistakes if Ren is acting like this. He can't afford to let it continue.

So he bites, nipping at Ren's tongue in frustration before the hand on his shoulder opens to shove instead, bodily forcing him back even as Akechi takes several steps back, nearly stepping in his own bucket fire.]

Stop that, [he snarls, and it's the sound of a beast feeling the bars of its cage snapping shut around it. His eyes flash with barely contained rage, masking regret swimming in their depths as he wipes at his lips, feeling spit (his, or Ren's?) coating the back of his hand.]

(Nevermind his slightly trembling hands, one moving deeper in Akechi's locks while the other pulls the other closer by the waist. Each and every move Akechi makes within the kiss is reprocicated with a stronger one, a more passionate lip nibble, a hasty, curious tongue and a smirk that appears just when the lips separate before joining again in their dance.

The nails grant Akechi a pleased sigh, and he comes to the conclusion he doesn't want to stop so soon. There's something rather intoxicating in the chemistry between them, something he feels it's worth exploring... And then it's broken, the bite and the shove coming too suddenly for Ren to prepare himself, almost tripping as a result.

... Sure. Doesn't matter how much he wants to continue, to understand, to challenge this, he can't do it without Akechi. He sees the rage, and there it is. The expected reaction.

Ren just shows both hands, as if to say it's safe, before one of them attempts to find the spot where Akechi's nails pierced. He's not apologizing, though. He meant every second of it, and his own stance is to stand his ground, eyes locked on the other.

What now?)

[The silence that falls between them is only broken by the harsh noise of Akechi trying to catch his breath, the crackle of the fire beside him, and the agonizing pounding of his heart. He can almost feel his blood coursing through his veins, feeling like his whole body is flushed with the need to kiss him again. To see how far they can go.]

Stop, [he repeats more quietly, hands clenched into tight fists at his sides as his gaze slides away from Ren's. His guts feel like they've twisted into one heavy, choking lump as he feels his fingernails biting into his skin like they'd bitten into Ren's less than a minute ago.] I'm not interested.

[It's a lie, and an obvious one, the evidence their actions from just before. But he has to shut this down. Hurting Ren now just means he won't hurt badly enough in the future to make the wrong choice.]

(The silence can be as uncomfortable as it wants; Ren's stare does not vacillate for a second while he tries to gather this thoughts. There's not a smidge of regret in Ren, that he knows for sure. Akechi's been in his mind for such a long time, only building up until the breaking point they've both witnessed.

Parsee was right that he needed to deal with this not to go insane. Case in point.

With Akechi's half-assed lie being thrown right on his face, Ren's lips press together as he raises both his brows. He just saw how not interested Akechi is, but sure.)

You don't want it.

(A correction. Why, exactly, Ren fails to understand, but that's not for him to push. It's not the right time.)

It's fine.

[His mouth shuts with an audible click of his teeth snapping together, another growl in the back of his throat. He does want it. He wants it even more badly than before now that he's had a taste of it. Ren's the only person who's seen the real him, who kept reaching out, and now Akechi has to slap that hand away harder than before.]

Justify it to yourself however you want, [he hears himself saying past the leaden weight that's settled in his chest. The scant scraps of his brain that aren't tied up screaming about what just happened are working overtime to figure out how to fix this.] You're incapable of doing anything like this without getting feelings involved, and I'm not interested.

[That's the only explanation he can come up with to try to explain why he'd let himself kiss Ren back. If he frames it in the purely physical, then it's fine. He can just keep lying. He's always been very good at lying, ever since he learned that people like a kind lie more than the honest truth. His back straightens as he forces himself to meet Ren's eyes again, forces himself not to look at his lips, or the nail marks he'd surely left on his shoulder.]

Don't forget that we have a deal, Ren. That's all.

( He thought they had quit it with the lies. Or at least, Ren has. Through and through, answering and being the most forthcoming he knows how to be - even with the few words that he chooses to share. Akechi, on the other hand, keeps Ren in the dark, even at a time like this, when there's no way this was just... Not after everything they've been through and all the time they're spending here.

Ren trusts his feelings and intuitions enough to know this was not just a product of the moment. Akechi seems to forget that Ren could always poke holes in his perfect image, find the loopholes in the lies and see right through it. Terrible moment to be trying to compensate for that.

His own hands are balled into fists and he will not divert the gaze from the other - but at least Ren is able to keep calm and collected while his mind is running wild, so best of luck to Akechi in his investigating of Ren's features. Unlike Akechi, Ren glances at the lips, the feeling of them still lingering on his own. Can one kiss the lies out, he wonders?)

Of course. That's all, huh?

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