[closed] I don't believe in much but I believe in you

[halloflamer]

Who: Blue + company!
What: Sometimes you pine so hard you turn into actual pine(?); Closed toplevels for the event!
Where: Various!
When: Mid-February, mostly
Content Warnings: Probable graphic illness/blood descriptions, as you'd expect!



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[halloflamer]

Y-yeah... I mean, especially if there's nothing to be done about it. [Oh.... Turing was speaking from experience, huh? Blue figures that the first time they met, that was basically exactly how it went down; no wonder they commiserated so much with Blue's current state.]

[He decides to himself that in the future, he should try not to leap to help Turing so much that they feel so helpless. Blue was pretty prideful, too; he could understand the feeling.]

[Blue seemed to have a nice stock of green tea saved up in his cupboard, aside from a couple herbal kinds he'd been able to find at the café to take home, so it seems he's quite the matcha fan.] My sis is a huge tea nerd, [He chuckles quietly. He probably shouldn't be trying to talk, but he was a chatty guy; sometimes he can't help himself!] So I'm used to keeping it around.

[begetblue]

Your sister?

[ That immediately drew Turing's attention. Though they really shouldn't be asking Blue a lot of questions when he wasn't feeling well... Argh! They would have to hold most of those back until he was feeling better.

Because he would get better. He had to.

Turing kept their focus on the tea instead, or at least they tried to. They had never made matcha before, so this was also a learning experience! Once they got the water boiling, which was probably a strange sight to behold considering Turing was doing all this while sitting or scooting around the countertop, they studied Blue's collection of tea. Honestly, they were studying each one as if they were a student doing some last minute cramming before an exam. Tea was very serious business. Eventually, after must fussing and referencing of instructions, Turing descended from the counter and presented Blue with a cup of green tea. Baby's first tea. ]

...What is it like to have a sister around?

[ They tried really hard to keep that question from coming out, honest. ]

[halloflamer]

Hm? Ah.... Yeah.

[Oh. Now that he thinks about it-- yeah, the concept of siblings is probably pretty odd to a robot, isn't it? Or maybe not.... Were robots all manufactured the same way like siblings? Was that even how Turing was made??]

[Blue muses to himself for a long moment before he shrugs weakly and watches them get to work. It's a lot of patient and curious watching as he settles into bed to wait for his tea. Here and there, Blue offers raspy, quiet bits of brewing advice, but mostly it seems like Turing has the hang of it! Maybe they had tea brewing instructions somewhere in that supercomputer brain of theirs?]

[Accepting the steaming teacup with a sigh of thanks, Blue lets himself just breathe in the mellow scent of the tea to calm himself before blinking and bearing his best grin towards Turing, wanting to encourage their genuine interest.] Daisy's kind of a pain, h-haha! .....Well, but she's always looked out for me.

[Blue settles back into his bed a little, and stares at his lap. His face was already a bit flush with fever, but his cheeks pink a little more.] She basically raised me, since gramps was always busy working. --to support us, I mean... After... Well, he was always busy, but....

[For a split moment there's something like a frown that crosses his features, as he tries to shake past his thoughts.] --Anyway, she's a good bit older than me, and I was a real brat when I was younger. [Like he isn't now??] She's a saint, honestly, for putting up with me....

[begetblue]

[ Yup. There is was again. Blue definitely had a tendency to deflect before admitting how he really felt or at least strongly hinting at it. Maybe he was a lot more shy than he seemed. Either way, they stood there at the side of the bed with their elbows propped up. It was like being told a bedtime story, except in reverse, sort of. ]

Daisy is a lovely name!

[ That aside, the subject of family did appear to be complicated. Better be careful to not step on any mines and stress Blue out further. ]

I can imagine, based on what I have seen of your memories.

[ That...that was not careful. That was more of a barb of a statement, actually. ]

Though perhaps it's less that she's a saint--though I'm sure she's very nice! Couldn't it be that she wasn't just "putting up with you"? It may not be my place to say when I haven't met her, but from my point of view, it seems equally likely that she took care of you because she cared for you very much.

[ There, that was better. ]

The residents here care for you as well, including me. So...please get well soon.

[halloflamer]

O-oh...........

[Yeah... He'd almost forgotten about that. Blue visibly clenches up a little bit, then wilts, erupting into a tiny coughing fit as he fails to push his feelings about those memories back down.]

[He doesn't want to make Turing feel bad about it, though! He tries to wave a hand to dismiss it away- no use being guilty about it, they were telling it like it is, right? And Blue sure is avoiding it...]

[Still, though- by the time he manages to recover from his coughing, and hear Turing's kind words about Daisy, he has to give it pause. They weren't... wrong. And Blue knew that- he knew that she did what she did because she cared about him, and was looking out for what was best for him, even when as a kid, it'd felt overbearing.]

Yeah... You're right, [He grins weakly, and reaches out to give Turing a little poke in their 'cheek', lovingly.] I'm forgetting the important stuff, right?

[...There was more to it than that. More than he'd admit to most people here. He still felt he wasn't deserving of a lot of the positive attention, because he hid the parts of him that were terrible, most times. But then again, Turing had seen some of it too, right? Even if it had been pretty minor pettiness....]

[But maybe it was okay, to feel like he could be worried after. He rubs at his chest, as if to ease the coughing.] Maybe some positive thinkin'll help me out.

[begetblue]

[ That poke was, without a doubt, going to leave a smudge on their screen, but for Blue's sake, they endured it. Though it was an affectionate gesture, so saying they "endured it" definitely wasn't right. It was such a small thing in the grand scheme of things, but it made them smile regardless, and Turing did very little to hold it back. Actually, speaking of affectionate gestures...

They climbed up with only a little difficulty (honest!) and reached out to give Blue a pat on the head just as he had done for them before. ]

It's okay. I know it's not typical for humans to have perfect recall, so I'll remind you if that people care about you if it seems like you're forgetting that.

[ Were they trying to emulate the senpai and/or older sibling energy that Blue had shown to them in the past? Well, maybe. They also perked right up at the idea of positive thinking. ]

Yes! 'Mind over matter,' as the saying goes. I'll help you think of some positive things as well.