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tabularasa_rp2020-08-06 09:22 am
zenryokubatankyu) wrote in tabularasa_rp2020-08-06 09:22 am
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[There's a hand on his shoulder, and it barely registers to him that Ren is cheering him on still. He's still kind of depending on him. Well, that co dependence issue seems to never go away, even if he tries...]
I dunno how to be more reliable. I wanna be...I dunno how. People usually don't trust me to be. [For good reason.] But I wanna learn how...
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(Having no idea what to say is not great. He usually prefers to take actions to prove points, but this situation required one he isn't quite willing to take.)
Why do you think people don't trust you to be?
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[What action?? Act, Ren!]
Uhhhhh....because in the past, I usually haven't been? Like, don't tell Tifa-chan or Aerith-chan or....any attractive girl around my age. Or guy. But...I'm kind of a huge piece of shit. I'm a NEET, Ren. Do you know what a NEET is?
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(Ren is from the country, is that a slang... Big city slang? The hell is a Neet? But he does look quite stern.)
Oso. Someone like that would not care.
(Trust him. He would know.)
I've met a good share of bad people. You're not one of them.
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And then he...
[He hesitates to mention it, because he wants to be a good role model. He does. And he hates that he's venting out all his problems to someone younger than him who he wants to look after.] He collapsed. From overwork. That was the only way to make us start considering getting jobs, and when I got one, it was just as a dishwasher at a Chinese place. We're the lowest of the low. And we know it. I know it.
[He hollowly sighs.]
They'd care, Ren. And you just don't know me well enough. I think I heard this on TV or something once, but from far enough away...red flags don't really tend to look that way. They don't stick out. They just look like......flags. If you see a few, it doesn't matter.
Well. Now you're getting closer.
Probably starting to look a little slimy, huh?
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A piece of shit wouldn't be self-aware. A piece of shit would not, in any shape or form, try to better themselves.)
Everything you've just told me is not great.
(He's not lying to you, it is what it is.)
But the fact that you want to better yourself and not be the person you were back home speaks more to me than whatever you've done in the past.
(Ren sighs, only because he knows he needs to say something here.)
I used to deal with bad people. All of them thought they were in the right in what they were doing, that it was somehow justified. You don't. It means something.
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[And he respects that. He trusts Ren. Ren's been nice to him, he's his best friend here.]
And I do. I know I need to. I need to be an actual adult, but it's hard. I don't know if anyone trusts me. I don't think they do. I don't know if anyone genuinely likes me or if they're just humoring me because they think I'm some poor idiot who got wrapped up in this who hasn't done anything wrong. But I have.
[He hears that last bit, and sighs.]
Yeah. I don't.
Also, what do you mean with 'I used to deal with bad people'? Is this the part of the story where you bust out with something like 'you see, Osomatsu, this entire time, I have been a...secret agent'? Are you actually in your mid-30s and an undercover cop? If you're a cop, you gotta tell me.
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(Again, absolutely certain of his words.)
That doesn't mean we get to stop trying to be better. Don't assume that's what people think, because you don't know that for certain. I definitely don't think that way.
(Of course it would come back to haunt him. He wants to laugh a little, the one who thinks he's 30 and is a cop is the other Persona boy.)
I am just... Me. I can't tell you more about that, though. I can tell you that I am not a cop, though.
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Sometimes we are on the exact same wavelength, Ren.
...You're right. I dunno for certain. I've just got guesses. I just....don't know how to be better. How did you start being so...you, Ren? This might sound pathetic coming from a guy older than you, but...I wanna be more like you.
[He quirks a wry smile.]
'I'm a normal high schooler, but also I've dealt with real bad people. I promise I'm not a cop, but I know my shit, Osomatsu.' You realize how odd that sounds, right? ...Whatever it is you are, if you really can't tell me, okay, but...I hope you can eventually.
ugh double though on my last tag wheezes
(Ren shrugs. How can anyone be so themselves?)
I realize it. I hope I can one day, too.
(Sorry, Oso!! Breaks his heart, but he can't afford it.)
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[Oso's stats aren't high enough, you see.]
That's all I can kinda ask for, really. You man of mystery. [He snorts.] If you're actually a superhero or something, just know that I think that's really badass and I'm behind you all the way. Also, when y'get up the nerve to tell me, let me be your sidekick or something. I promise I'm badass enough for it.
[He's trying to be good-natured about being shut out at least.]
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(A vigilante would fit better!
He is amused though, that even with the glasses and attempting his very best to mask his true identity... People can still glimpse at it.)
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Yeah, sure. I know your game. Glasses. Average teenager stuff. Then you pull the glasses off and wa-bam, SuperRen.
[He snickers.]
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(He laughs, shaking his head a few times. Ah, Oso. This is very cute and somewhat right, but also, really off...)