tabularasa_rp | [closed] I don't believe in much but I believe in you

[It's been a few days since he started feeling ill, and Blue can't say he's feeling much better... In fact, his head only seems to get swimmier, and his chest feels even more congested. The first time he coughed and found red in his hands he'd freaked out, and at this point he isn't quite sure what to do.]

[Usually quite the active person, Blue been opting to stay put in his apartment ever since then, and he's starting to go a little stir-crazy with worry and anxiety over this mystery illness. Not that he's totally in the dark over what it could be.... And yet somehow, it doesn't seem quite believable, either.]

[But rather than contact anyone for help, he remains isolated. Blue has a bad habit of spiraling in his own head, putting the weight of his worries solely on his shoulders- and forgetting that there are others around that he can rely on. Sometimes, he can use the reminder.]

Edited 2021-02-19 01:07 (UTC)

[ When it became obvious that there was something going around, Blue was one of the first people they thought of. He hadn't been feeling well that last time either, so of course, as the hale and hearty one, it was Turing's responsibility to check on him and make sure he was okay. Honestly, humans were so physically fragile sometimes!

...Though it was nice to get to be the reliable one, especially when it felt like they were always getting help from others in one way or another.

They stopped at Heavenly Blanc first to make sure that Blue wasn't on the floor again, but if he had been, at least they would have known where he was. The fact that he wasn't was worrying in its own way, and their mind was already making up a good handful of worst-case scenarios in case something bad really had happened. The next most obvious spot was Blue's room, so they hurried off there next. ]

Blue? Are you there?

[ Knock, knock. ]

[There were different kinds of vigor, for sure- and Turing was fortunate to be of fairly sound body and mind, compared to a lot of the void. If size was their only detriment, they were probably coming out of most of the weird things that happened alright. Being a robot probably helped- that is, until the void had something to say about it....]

[Indeed, when Turing visits the Heavenly Blanc, the bar is strangely empty, as if no one has been there to tend it for the week. That sight might have been worrying enough for Turing, but when they arrive to the door of Blue's apartment, there's a clear sound of activity inside..]

[A coughing fit answers Turing's call before Blue can manage actual words out- so instead of the trainer, the one who opens the door is Alakazam, being the only able-bodied resident with hands. Locking eyes with the ROM, Alakazam nods slowly at Turing, as if immediately understanding why they were here, and gestures them inside.] Kazam, alakazam.

[Blue himself is bundled up in his bed, worried Pokémon milling around him, with the wastebin pulled to the side of it. There was a worrying amount of red amassed in the bin.] Turing...! Hey-- [He jolts up with a worrying sway and tries to arrange things with a fluster of embarrassment, his voice ragged and interrupted with another fit of cough.] Some kinda weird flu going around, huh? H-heh, lucky you, you probably don't have to worry about it...!

Edited 2021-02-21 18:36 (UTC)

[ Turing was caught a bit off-guard when Alakazam opened the door; they knew enough to recognize that Alakazam was one of Blue's Pokemon, but not enough to know why their arrival seemed to be almost expected. Though, that wasn't really important now, was it? They offered some polite words of thanks for being let in, and they were immediately greeted by something somewhat familiar, but also contradictory.

It was nice that Blue was trying so hard to reassure them and all. Really, that effort didn't go unappreciated. Still, despite those carefree words, at the very least the fretting Pokemon told them that whatever this was, it wasn't nothing. There was a bit of a pout on Turing's face as they only just held back some grade-A scolding, but then they saw the red contents of the wastebin as they approached.

No.

No no no.

Blue couldn't die, he couldn't, they didn't want to lose another friend, whether it was to the Void itself and its whims or illness-- ]

You should be resting! I-If you're worried about cleaning, I can do that for you! I don't mind!

[ That panicked answer was what resulted after Turing tried to calm themselves down. ]

H-huh!? Don't worry, I'm okay, really--!

[Blue tries to reassure Turing, but he knows once the ROM has spotted the wastebasket that the Meowth is out of the bag. Nervously, he tries to snatch it up and move it to the other side of the bed, but before he can do so he's dredging up another coughing fit.]

[A fresh glut of blood-red petals comes up with it into his hand, slime and all, which doesn't help calm anyone. Arcanine nervously whines at the side of the bed, Eevee who is on the bed starts whining too, and now the apartment is a cacophony of anxiety!]

[...At least there was one calm-minded individual in the room; Alakazam sighs to himself as Turing immediately panics upon seeing Blue, who in turn panics because Turing is panicking, which in turn sets off all the other Pokémon into an anxious tizzy...] Ala, alakazam, [He raises his voice and tersely addresses everyone in the room, pointing to Blue with a spoon in particular before addressing the other Pokémon.] Kazam. Zam, Alakazam.

...He agrees with you, [Blue pouts like a scolded child, and settles himself back against his pillows to sulk.] That I should be resting, I mean. W-whatever....

...You're not sick too, right? My Pokémon have been taking care of me, but 's been pretty rough. As you can see... [He wipes his hand off onto another tissue and tosses it into the wastebin.] I don't really know what's going on.

[ Turing had no idea what Alakazam was saying, but the meaning was clear: everyone, calm the heck down. It sounded easy, but in practice that sinking feeling stubbornly refused to leave them. For Blue's sake they tried to quash those feelings; it couldn't be good for his recovery if he was in a stressed state of mind. It definitely wasn't good for Eevee and Arcanine either. ]

I'm not! I feel fine, so please don't worry about me.

[ As Blue threw another tissue into the trash their fretful look threatened to return, but they forced their display into behaving. No worrying on the outside allowed, they reminded themselves. Unfortunately, they didn't know that how dangerous it was to do just that right then. ]

I...I wish I had answers for you, but I'm afraid I don't know much about this mysterious illness either. Is there anything else I can do to help your Pokemon take care of you in the meantime?

[ Maybe fetching some water, or a warm drink, or food, or anything, really. They didn't want to just be standing there uselessly, that was for sure. Turing took a quick glance around the room for any sort of clue on what they could do to help. ]

Well, that's good, [Blue tries to crack a smile, and a sigh of relief. If Turing was all messed up by this, he'd be pretty upset about it!]

[Blissfully unaware of their own suppression, Blue lets out a tiny sigh of his own as he gathers some blankets back up to his lap, awkwardly thinking of something to say. What Turing could do?]

[--Actually, there were things his Pokémon couldn't do; he nods towards the stove in the kitchenette area, looking a little sheepish and pathetic about it.] Um, actually... Well, I'm the breadwinner in this family, [He chuckles self-deprecatingly, easing his guilty-looking Pokémon.] Uh, I guess the bread-cooker too. What I mean it, I haven't been feeling up to cooking lately, so we've been eating kinda lamely the last couple days. Think you could grab us some food to stock up?

[From the Wallmarket he thinks, or even some of the snacks he had saved up at the bar; he just couldn't make the trip in the condition he was in, and although he'd sent his Pokémon on errands to fetch things in the meantime, it was hard for them to do so.]

[You know. No thumbs.]

Uh, it doesn't have to be now, though... Maybe just tea is good for now. I'm happy y'came to see me!

[ Turing immediately brightened at Blue's words. At least in that respect they weren't being secretive about their feelings. That, and it was nice to get confirmation that their presence was appreciated. ]

Of course I came! You weren't at Heavenly Blanc, so I was--

[ "Worried." They couldn't say that, obviously. ]

--um, wondering where you were! [ Nailed it. ] I know it wasn't proper of me to make an unannounced visit, but it was for a good reason.

[ Turing had more experience making coffee instead of tea, but surely the general idea was similar. Either way, they needed hot water. The problem with that was immediately obvious when they approached the kitchenette. Stretching up to reach anything on the counter when they would be dealing with very hot liquids could very easily end badly for them. Hmmm. ]

...May I borrow a chair or stool of some kind?

Y-yeah. Not really feeling up to bustling around behind the bar, [Blue grins sheepishly. He'd left a note for Ren, but he wonders if the other guy had even seen it. He hasn't heard from him since he holed up in his apartment.....] I don't you comin' by, though. It's just... I didn't wanna bug anybody with what a deadweight I'm being.

[He cringes lightly. If it was Red, he'd trust the guy with his lameness, but folks here didn't deserve to deal with his whining! ...So he thought. But he's starting to find that they're actually quite insistent otherwise.]

Oh... yeah, uh-

[Leaping up from his spot by Blue's sickbed, Arcanine immediately volunteers himself for the job to save Blue the effort, trotting over to Turing and kneeling himself by the counter for them to climb up and get a boost.]

Rrf! [Climb on, little guy!]

...Haha, I guess that works, [Blue grins weakly at Arcanine's eagerness to help.]

Edited 2021-02-26 01:22 (UTC)

[ Their first inclination was to say no, and that of course Blue wasn't a bother at all for not feeling well, but they stopped themselves. Feeling helpless was...not a pleasant experience, and that was something they were starting to understand very well. ]

I think I understand what you mean. It is frustrating when there are it feels like you always need to ask others for aid. Of course, it's nice that others are willing to offer that aid, but it is still an awkward feeling.

[ At least Arcanine was here! They were still getting help, but at least they were getting it from a fluffy friend. After some words of thanks, they climbed up to reach the counter and started on the tea. Now, what kind to make... Probably the most soothing one, they decided. ]

Y-yeah... I mean, especially if there's nothing to be done about it. [Oh.... Turing was speaking from experience, huh? Blue figures that the first time they met, that was basically exactly how it went down; no wonder they commiserated so much with Blue's current state.]

[He decides to himself that in the future, he should try not to leap to help Turing so much that they feel so helpless. Blue was pretty prideful, too; he could understand the feeling.]

[Blue seemed to have a nice stock of green tea saved up in his cupboard, aside from a couple herbal kinds he'd been able to find at the café to take home, so it seems he's quite the matcha fan.] My sis is a huge tea nerd, [He chuckles quietly. He probably shouldn't be trying to talk, but he was a chatty guy; sometimes he can't help himself!] So I'm used to keeping it around.

Your sister?

[ That immediately drew Turing's attention. Though they really shouldn't be asking Blue a lot of questions when he wasn't feeling well... Argh! They would have to hold most of those back until he was feeling better.

Because he would get better. He had to.

Turing kept their focus on the tea instead, or at least they tried to. They had never made matcha before, so this was also a learning experience! Once they got the water boiling, which was probably a strange sight to behold considering Turing was doing all this while sitting or scooting around the countertop, they studied Blue's collection of tea. Honestly, they were studying each one as if they were a student doing some last minute cramming before an exam. Tea was very serious business. Eventually, after must fussing and referencing of instructions, Turing descended from the counter and presented Blue with a cup of green tea. Baby's first tea. ]

...What is it like to have a sister around?

[ They tried really hard to keep that question from coming out, honest. ]

Hm? Ah.... Yeah.

[Oh. Now that he thinks about it-- yeah, the concept of siblings is probably pretty odd to a robot, isn't it? Or maybe not.... Were robots all manufactured the same way like siblings? Was that even how Turing was made??]

[Blue muses to himself for a long moment before he shrugs weakly and watches them get to work. It's a lot of patient and curious watching as he settles into bed to wait for his tea. Here and there, Blue offers raspy, quiet bits of brewing advice, but mostly it seems like Turing has the hang of it! Maybe they had tea brewing instructions somewhere in that supercomputer brain of theirs?]

[Accepting the steaming teacup with a sigh of thanks, Blue lets himself just breathe in the mellow scent of the tea to calm himself before blinking and bearing his best grin towards Turing, wanting to encourage their genuine interest.] Daisy's kind of a pain, h-haha! .....Well, but she's always looked out for me.

[Blue settles back into his bed a little, and stares at his lap. His face was already a bit flush with fever, but his cheeks pink a little more.] She basically raised me, since gramps was always busy working. --to support us, I mean... After... Well, he was always busy, but....

[For a split moment there's something like a frown that crosses his features, as he tries to shake past his thoughts.] --Anyway, she's a good bit older than me, and I was a real brat when I was younger. [Like he isn't now??] She's a saint, honestly, for putting up with me....

[ Yup. There is was again. Blue definitely had a tendency to deflect before admitting how he really felt or at least strongly hinting at it. Maybe he was a lot more shy than he seemed. Either way, they stood there at the side of the bed with their elbows propped up. It was like being told a bedtime story, except in reverse, sort of. ]

Daisy is a lovely name!

[ That aside, the subject of family did appear to be complicated. Better be careful to not step on any mines and stress Blue out further. ]

I can imagine, based on what I have seen of your memories.

[ That...that was not careful. That was more of a barb of a statement, actually. ]

Though perhaps it's less that she's a saint--though I'm sure she's very nice! Couldn't it be that she wasn't just "putting up with you"? It may not be my place to say when I haven't met her, but from my point of view, it seems equally likely that she took care of you because she cared for you very much.

[ There, that was better. ]

The residents here care for you as well, including me. So...please get well soon.

O-oh...........

[Yeah... He'd almost forgotten about that. Blue visibly clenches up a little bit, then wilts, erupting into a tiny coughing fit as he fails to push his feelings about those memories back down.]

[He doesn't want to make Turing feel bad about it, though! He tries to wave a hand to dismiss it away- no use being guilty about it, they were telling it like it is, right? And Blue sure is avoiding it...]

[Still, though- by the time he manages to recover from his coughing, and hear Turing's kind words about Daisy, he has to give it pause. They weren't... wrong. And Blue knew that- he knew that she did what she did because she cared about him, and was looking out for what was best for him, even when as a kid, it'd felt overbearing.]

Yeah... You're right, [He grins weakly, and reaches out to give Turing a little poke in their 'cheek', lovingly.] I'm forgetting the important stuff, right?

[...There was more to it than that. More than he'd admit to most people here. He still felt he wasn't deserving of a lot of the positive attention, because he hid the parts of him that were terrible, most times. But then again, Turing had seen some of it too, right? Even if it had been pretty minor pettiness....]

[But maybe it was okay, to feel like he could be worried after. He rubs at his chest, as if to ease the coughing.] Maybe some positive thinkin'll help me out.

[ That poke was, without a doubt, going to leave a smudge on their screen, but for Blue's sake, they endured it. Though it was an affectionate gesture, so saying they "endured it" definitely wasn't right. It was such a small thing in the grand scheme of things, but it made them smile regardless, and Turing did very little to hold it back. Actually, speaking of affectionate gestures...

They climbed up with only a little difficulty (honest!) and reached out to give Blue a pat on the head just as he had done for them before. ]

It's okay. I know it's not typical for humans to have perfect recall, so I'll remind you if that people care about you if it seems like you're forgetting that.

[ Were they trying to emulate the senpai and/or older sibling energy that Blue had shown to them in the past? Well, maybe. They also perked right up at the idea of positive thinking. ]

Yes! 'Mind over matter,' as the saying goes. I'll help you think of some positive things as well.

[closed] I don't believe in much but I believe in you

For Turing- pls baby the baby

baby is here to baby the baby

weeehh

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